Thursday, October 1, 2009

Welcome To My Journey

I've been thinking about creating this blog for several months now. All of our creations start out as thoughts, so its always exciting to see something manifest from thought. This blog will serve as an outlet for me to share and express my thoughts and hopefully inspire.

I first started blogging a year and a half ago, as a way to promote my online business. I sell home decor and furniture so I started a home decorating blog and launched my article marketing campaign by writing articles on decorating and designer home decor.

As I become more familiar with the world of blogging, I am truly amazed at the talent in writing that I find. These women take ordinary, everyday experiences they have with their husbands and kids and turn them into witty, often hilarious short stories. There are some great writers out there. These devoted family bloggers are also leaving a priceless treasure of written family history for future generations. How interesting it would be if blogging had been around during the 1800's. Can you imagine how fun reading blogs from "soiled doves" in Tombstone or " life on the wagon train" would have been?

I have a lot of respect and admiration for the talented women bloggers I have met and continue to discover every week. What excites me about creating this blog is I can finally be creative and express who I really am.

Life is an incredible journey and always changing. I felt a shift starting in my Inner Being (my spirit) a couple of years ago, as I was approaching what they call "middle age". I was raised with a Christian background. My family would occasionally attend the local Baptist church in the handful of small towns we lived in in Wyoming. However, I've never considered myself a religious person, more of a spiritual person with a strong belief in a higher power and a fascination with the many mysteries and wonders of the universe. A few years ago, I suddenly became extremely interested in life after death and all things paranormal. There were a few personal experiences that helped contribute to my growing desire to learn more about this subject, but it was also more than that. I had a life-altering experience at the age of 15. I broke my neck in an alcohol related car accident and became paralyzed from the chest down. My entire adult life has been filled with the challenges of living with a disability. So part of my interest in the spirit world came from a desire to know what my future (and all humans' futures) is going to be like when I'm free of the physical limitations plaguing me in this life. Not that I had become suicidal, I have an 11 year old beautiful daughter that I would never dream of leaving behind. I also have never lost my love of life. However, the disability, I could leave that behind in a heartbeat. I'm soooo over being paralyzed. Been there, done that, lets move on. I have gone on and lived life in the last 24 years since my accident. Did I finally accept life in a wheelchair as part of me? No way. Never have, never will. You can go on with your life and live it the best you can from a chair, but you never have to accept it as part of you if you don't want to. No offense to anyone else sitting in a chair that feels it is now part of them. Some people embrace disability as a part of what makes them who they are. This blog is not about trying to change anyone's mind or belief system. This is simply a place to share my own thoughts and experiences as I learn, expand and grow through my journey in this time and space. I turned 40 this year and I'm experiencing one of the most difficult transitions in my life. I'm about to become a single mom, actually, a single, disabled mom, as my 15 year relationship with my daughter's father is ending. My challenging life is suddenly about to become even more challenging, as I lose my partner, my best friend and most of my household income in one of the worst economies since the Great Depression.

The bright spot in my life right now is remembering who I really am. Feeling the shift in my Inner Being, bringing me closer to my spiritual, eternal self, balancing my energy, bringing me into alignment with my Source (God). The desires for more knowledge of a spiritual nature and a higher power have brought some amazing people and books into my life this year as well. Just in time, because this separation I'm going through would have been so much worse if I had not attracted this new knowledge into my life. As I begin to understand how this universal Law of Attraction works, I feel a new sense of hope knowing I can take an active role in the deliberate creation of the rest of my life's journey. One thing I have always held onto and always believed in is hope. Such a beautiful word.

I've also decided to write my story. I guess an autobiography. People have suggested this to me through the years, but it never really appealed to me because I'm an intensely private person. But perhaps sharing my experiences could serve a purpose. Maybe I could help someone struggling through hardships in their own life. I'm hoping to have my story published someday. I know at least one person on this Earth who would cherish it. My mother.


Jem said...

Hi, and wow... i absoloutely love your page, i have only read your welcome page so far.... when i have more time i will be back to read the rest xxx

I sensed an amazing energy as soon as I clicked on it... please drop by and visit my website....

Love and light xxx